Beyond distracted

June 3, 2009

I thought this week things would start to be better, but I’m finding that I am beyond distracted by the cancer.

During the times when I am in a meeting for work I’m okay, but pretty much most of the other times I’m preoccupied, and my work inbox is the biggest mess you can imagine. It’s hard to pretend that the work stuff is even remotely important.

Reducing my stress seems like the most important thing I can do right now, especially as I face another few weeks of waiting until the diagnosis is staged and the treatment plan is finalized.   I’m reducing my travel, will probably head for only 2 days/1 night on the road, and I’m trying to make sure I get some exercise.  It makes me feel like I’m doing something positive for my body, and I do think it’s a good outlet for stress.

I’m also still watching my diet, which seems ridiculously superficial on one hand, and profoundly important on the other.  I know myself, and if I don’t watch my diet in times of stress, I will eat my way into another 2-3 sizes in no time flat.  In addition, I do believe a healthy diet is good for the body, and while I don’t expect a cure for this from my plate, I do think that everything in our bodies is impacted by what we eat, so making healthier choices seems like a smart choice, and one that reduces my stress.

I’m trying to figure out whether to leave this blog for a while and start one somewhere more focused on the cancer, since it’s not the weekly scale fluctuations that will make me cheerful or depressed right now, but I don’t know if I’m emotionally ready to move to a ‘cancer blog’ where it would seem that my whole life would be about this stupid disease.

I guess things can’t be so bad if I’m able to spend time worrying about this, right? 😉

Thanks a ton for the outpouring of support, it really helps.

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