Getting a little control

January 21, 2009

Sometimes the hardest thing is just seeing where you are – and once you do that it’s somehow possible to see at least a hint of a path to where you want to be.

Since writing to acknowledge where I am and how hard it is, it’s seemed just a little bit easier to get on track. Yesterday I made healthy choices. Today as well. Not perfect, but healthy, and definitely in the right direction.

The cafeteria at our offices in Munich has a pretty nice salad bar and the soups are good too. Soup and a salad with a yogurt for dessert is healthy and diet friendly, available to me most days I’ll eat in the office, and can help eliminate some of the choices and temptations. This is one of the strategies I used 8 years ago when I traveled extensively AND lost 60+ pounds, and it’s something I need to do again. At the time I also had fixed rules for what I would eat for breakfast (ignoring a lot of the calorie-loaded choices at big hotel buffets) and that is something I do naturally now 90% of the time. I’d kind of forgotten about limiting my lunches to limited options, stocking up on fruit every chance I had (started this yesterday) and reigning in dinner choices too (not at that point yet).

I remember that with this approach I was a bit boring but was able to control food choices in about 80% of the situations, which gave me enough leeway. At the time I was also in hotels that had good gyms, something which is not currently the case, so I’ll need to see if I can get myself to do DVDs or go for walks or something in the future.

In any event, I’m feeling better and more in control about it.

In some ways it’s a bit like it was 8 years ago – a job so out of control that being in control of my diet was a big comfort — at least ONE THING I could manage. We’ll see if I can get the job in a better degree of control in the future – right now it’s not looking good for the first half of the year, and I’m trying to show flexibility and roll with the punches at work. But the dissatisfaction is deep, much deeper than it was 8 years ago, and I’m much less patient and willing to sacrifice than I had been…

Setting up a new organisation, new functions, new responsiblities and new competencies is no easy task, and frankly might turn out to be one I’m not up for.

But at least what I’ve learned in the past is coming in useful again!

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