Treading weight in the deep end

October 28, 2008 Motivate

Well I am not managing to get myself motivated enough to do anything about my weight for more than a few days in a row.  I am still frighteningly heavy (although I’m still down a few from the brush with the SCARY number). I dont think counting calories is going to work right now (no matter […]

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I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself

September 6, 2008 Motivate

I know I have a legitimate right to feel sad and angry in the light of this ectopic pregnancy, but I am kind of sick of feeling sorry for myself too, and I think that’s a good thing.  I wouldn’t say I’m “moving on” or “putting it behind me” but it’s gradually becoming just another […]

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What positive steps for health have you taken?

July 11, 2008 Motivate

For a while now I’ve wanted to do several exercises related to mentally getting yourself into the “losing weight” mode.  Although I’m doing pretty well right now, there is still room for improvement (especially in diet) and the next few weeks with vacations etc will be full of challenging situations, plus I’d like to get this off […]

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Full of excuses but moving on anyway

June 27, 2008 Motivate

I have been full of excuses lately. Some are legitimate, some are not, but all, in the end, are just excuses. I have been really sad these past few weeks as the due date for the pregnancy I lost last Fall came and went, with me still not pregnant despite a lot of efforts, and […]

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I’m struggling again

June 19, 2008 Motivate

I guess it was the +4 pounds on the scale that did me in.  I’m struggling again, not very motivated, not doing a very good job, not tracking… I also need to come up with a plan for the summer, and nothing seems right to me.  I don’t know what I’ll do.  I think I’m […]

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Fat hands with sausage fingers

June 4, 2008 Motivate

I have never liked my hands. All my life I looked at other women’s hands and saw elegance and grace and I always saw a toddler’s chubby appendages at the end of my own arms. Chubby fingers, fatty hands. At least for the moment no wrinkles on them, which is small solace. My hands get […]

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Pick your hard

May 31, 2008 Motivate

Yesterday I saw somewhere a weight-loss quote that I found so profound I have not stopped thinking about it.   I didn’t write down the source for it, so apologies if it’s anyone’s personal effort here going unattributed. Being Fat is Hard.  Maintenance is Hard.  Dieting is Hard.  Pick your Hard. This hit me in the […]

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One wrong turn needs two right ones

May 20, 2008 Motivate

I heard an interesting comment the other day – when we take a wrong turn, we don’t go in the right direction with just one turn in the good direction – it takes two right turns to get back to where we were.  With one we are facing the correct way, but with two you […]

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Down 4

May 13, 2008 Motivate

I got on the scale this morning and was very happy to see a new decade – the scale read 209. I actually think that it’s probably abnormally low and won’t be too surprised to see it the same or up one next week, but the needle moving in the right direction is a great […]

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Up One…

May 5, 2008 Motivate

Well, the trip to London was not without its price – I’m up one pound this morning. I’m not too surprised – walking all over the place can only partially offset 2 servings of gelato, toffee pudding, smoothies and all the other yummy but caloric fare we took in over the past few days. But […]

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Lost 3 pounds and Gained some self-respect

April 28, 2008 Motivate

I’ve lost 3 pounds! I would normally weigh in Monday, but since I was out of town Monday morning I did it Sunday, and was glad to see 3 pounds gone of the shocking high weight of 215. I am mainly happy what I have gained, however : A more optimistic outlook and feeling better […]

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April 15, 2008 Motivate

I knew I was heavier than I have been in many years. I knew that almost none of my clothes fit. I knew that even though I felt huge and unhealthy and unattractive at 202 pounds that I had to be weighing even more now. I knew that my wedding and engagement rings are very […]

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March 20, 2008 Motivate

I have been feeling really guilty about my weight recently. Not that those feelings have pushed me into action yet, but the pain is increasing and I am getting ready to get back in control. I am busting out of my fat clothes and looking in my closet makes me sad and angry at myself.  […]

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This is getting ridiculous – and I’m getting fatter

March 9, 2008 Motivate

I am about to go make popcorn with my stepson. In Europe popcorn is usually served with sugar instead of salt, thus it’s a big hit with kids. I make two batches, one sugared (for him) one salted (for me). My husband hates the stuff but it was his suggestion for us to make it […]

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The excuses are coming to an end…

February 25, 2008 Motivate

My DH’s surgery today went well, and it’s now behind us. Sure, he’ll be in the hospital for a while and will be in pain and then when he gets off the morphine will probably be grouchy because he can’t do everything he wants, but the worst is over and the surgeon said that it […]

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