Wobbly

July 8, 2009

I guess that’s the best word for my current emotional state : wobbly.

Actually, I’m doing okay on a number of fronts, but I am way out of it where work is concerned.  It’s like a switch of what matters and doesn’t has been hit, and I just can’t get myself to focus on the work stuff.  I can, however, build my cancer website and research endometrial cancer and treatment.  I can follow up on any number of personal projects.  But work… just isn’t clicking.

Most of the time my emotions are fine, stable, calm even.  Every so often I have a stressful moment, but they are becoming rarer.  I’ve been able to sleep without drugs or trouble for several nights now (although I keep the pills by my bed for now, just in case…).

I’m still using all the herbal and aromatherapy products labeled ‘relaxing’ or ‘anti-stress’ or ‘rescue’ like they are going out of business.  I am decluttering like mad.

I saw that something went haywire with the feeds at the 3FC blogs – I read your blogs in a reader and click over to comment from time to time, but everyone’s new post counts exploded last night – the good part was that I was able to unsubscribe from the dead blogs really easily, since they were obvious (they didn’t update), but since I had over 400 ‘unread’ posts I just reset it to ‘mark all as read’ – hopefully I didn’t miss much important with anyone.

I’m hoping to get the slides for pathology to get sent for a second opinion today or tomorrow.  Just the logistics of cancer, calls, second opinions etc is almost a job in itself. Maybe that’s why my day job seems less important?

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